[ 26.09.24 ] LAST ONE BEFORE TRIP, MAJOR INSOMNIA, FEEL-GOOD WORK STORIES
okay!! i think this is the last one before i go away - probably won't have any updates while i'm overseas, since i won't be taking a laptop or anything. i think i'm just going to make one big separate page for whatever shennanigans we get up to on the trip. i think the overall anxiety has settled down now and now i'm just excited about it. it'll be me, 🌙 & ⭐ going, and it's all of our first time going to japan, and specifically ⭐'s first time overseas! going to be super fun, can't wait to have all three of us in the same place again.

the last few days i have been having the worst insomnia of my life. i think at some point i was at 4hrs sleep in 3 days? and still going to work because we're so short staffed at the moment that i just couldn't call in on such short notice. awful. thankfully it's been mostly cruisy easy procedures (simple dentals, some low energy hospital admits, etc) so it's not been too bad. last night i think i slept for about 11 straight hours though, so hopefully that's been reset. i don't think it's anything in particular other than stress, and then stress because i'm too stressed to not sleep which means i'm not sleeping even MORE and so on. awful! yesterday was my last day at work though which was nice and chill, managed to see a few of my fav clients and their pets before i go away. i like most of our regular clients, but since i only really started at this clinic a year ago, i don't expect to have those good relationships with people to a point where they're as happy to see me as i am to see them. i have been surprised this week, though! there's been a few instances where i had to tell people i won't be here next time they come in and the response has been "aww nooo :(" which is so sweet. naturally 🐦 has been telling everyone she physically can that i won't be here and how hard her job will be while i'm away but hey, she did it to me first. i basically ran the clinic while she was overseas and i have no idea what i'm doing, she will have a much better time of it, i'm sure.

after a month of rescuing wildlife and being subsequently bitten and scratched and attacked by it, i have a few happy endings about most of them! i just recently had to free a possum from under my brother's car, where he somehow managed to trap the tip of it's tail under the wheel. after it sunk its little teeth into my arm, i did manage to free it and i just recently saw it again, alive and well, with a bunch of babies! so that's always nice. and recently i had been trying to contact the owner of a very unwell cat that had been dropped off as a stray into the clinic, and she got back to me yesterday to ask about him and where he had ended up. she was so nice, so happy to hear someone found her kitty because he'd been missing for two years!! they have since been reuinited and the cat is fine after a bit of treatment, which was such a great way to end yesterday



[ 17.09.24 ] TRAVEL ANXIETIES, WILDLIFE MISHAPS, GENERAL LIFE UPDATES
i get this stupid thing every time i travel where the week or so before it happens, i decide to come up with things to worry about that simply do not exist. my brain hates me and loves to catastrophise. i think my fear here is that i threw together the rough itinerary for our trip, hoping we could get together and refine it a bit before we go, but that just hasn't happened yet. i'm worried i've made an itinerary that i will enjoy, and my friends will hate. which is stupid! we are going to talk about it soon, it's just that everyone has been busy. i know and love the people i'm going with, i don't know why i'm so stressed that they're going to hate the trip and so will i. ridiculous. this isn't even my first time going to a country that isn't english speaking, which is what really SHOULD be a concern i have. i know very basic rudimentary japanese so navigating and stuff like that, i'm not worried about. idk i just am so stressed about not having this planned and cemented yet and we leave in just over 2wks. my brain will latch onto and panic about anything, i fear.

in other news. there's been a weird surge of injured wildlife coming into the clinic these last few weeks and for some inexplicable reason, i've become The Wildlife Person. which is so fine, i love my critters and beasts and am quite comfortable wrangling them and health checking them, but i somehow feel like i bullshitted and confidently agreed my way into this role. i have no technical real qualifications for wildlife - just a brain full of random facts from reading encyclopedias as a kid. i guess the confidence sells it, but it does mean that i'm learning a lot about our native animals! lots of birds and such this week, had a possum at home that got stuck under my brother's car, and a random chicken today. i am actually excelling pretty well at work - i am already confident in my nursing skills and i know i'm a good tech, but i've been doing a lot more hands on stuff in day-to-day clinic life that is usually only something i do in emergencies. inducting and intubating patients, suturing minor wounds, the occasional wildlife euthanasia...it's a nice feeling, to think the vets are comfortable and trust me to do these things. and reassuring that i'm good at them! i don't know if i'll be in gp vetmed forever; i either want to move into wildlife or emergency care, but idk i think i'm a lot more confident in moving into those kinds of roles now compared to how i felt even a year ago before i moved to this new clinic.

THE CRIMINAL!!!!

[ 05.09.24 ] BITTEN BY A RAT, NEW PROJECT, TRAGIC HAIRCUT oh how was your week? that's nice, that sounds good, mine started with a RAT BITE. this is the end of me, i fear. a feral rat BIT ME AT WORK!!!! someone dropped by with it wrapped up in a towel, told me that her kids found it and she thought it was dead but wasn't 100% sure, so she decided to bring it down. i gently took the towel off her and to both our surprise, no, he was not dead! he was very much alive and unhappy about his predicament!!! got me right on the finger, i have two little teeth holes on either side of it. i have been bitten by many things over the years at my job, but this is somehow the worst of all. it probably won't make my finger fall off or anything but yknow, it's the principle of it all. anyway. he went off to the wildcare carers to be returned to his rightful home since there was nothing wrong with him, and i had an eventful monday! just to add insult to injury as well, i got my hair cut over the weekend and she went wayyyy too short, and now i feel like i have no hair, but i did have really long hair beforehand so it's not actually that short. feels about 10kg lighter though, it's so weird and yk what, i don't want to spend too long yapping about my hair because i have a way more interesting topic i'm dying to talk about: MY NEW PROJECT!

i have been tossing around the idea of making a site for this story and world i've been developing and drawing and writing about for years now; it's very dear to me, i love all of my oc's and worldbuilding in it, but i never had it anywhere comprehensive to just have it all written down somewhere i can share. however, after 🌙 and i watched gravity falls and over the garden wall back-to-back, i've been slammed with the inspiration to start working on it again and i've decided to make an interactive little point and click style website where you can explore little scenes and read about the world and locations and characters and stuff!! it's gonna be pretty involved and a much higher level of coding than i've ever done before, but i'm feeling delusional and confident, and as soon as i have some content on there, i'm gonna link it and let people have a look through things :)